i fucked so much up.
i want to feel right. it’s been almost a year since it’s all been right. i pretend so much, i ignore the negatives in who i look for…but they always show up. that’s when the ignoring stage happens. when i just end it, even though it never started. ya know? i’ve been pretending and faking shit for so fucking long that i’ve forgotten who i seriously am, and what I like.
and now it’s our day… i used to be getting a message from you, an angry one because i forgot, of course. but that was better than the nothing i get now. i just wanna stop all this pain. it’s becoming really unhealthy. i miss you
